walk it off

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My horoscope

“You can’t keep this up much longer. If you’re too shell-shocked to see what’s going on it’s time to snap out of it. Diminishing yourself by accepting someone else’s bad behavior isn’t good for you or them. If you could see beyond the boundaries of the life you’ve created it would be obvious to you that there’s way more to it than this. And if you could get over the need to perpetuate issues that do nothing but keep the same patterns running, you would see that your situation has grown out of the fact that deep down inside you don’t feel appreciated “

I know these are stupid, but how come these always hit so close to home ? like seriously.

Things that helped me get throught today.

1. My mother
2. Hot chocolate and marshmallows
3. Being happy for you, and glad that I never put you in this place (seriously)
4. Being happy for myself because I wont ever be put here again
5. Memories from this weekend. The good ones
6. Knowing the real story, not just the bad stuff
7. FRIENDS!!!
8. Knowing tomorrow is tuesday
9. GETTING THAT EMAIL!
10. My mother x 2 
11. Knowing that eventually I will get to feel all of those things you take for granted until you lose them, once I have them again
12. Andrew Bird, WHY?, and Sufjan Stevens
13. My journal.
14. Making childrens books for ECE
15. Chicago being super beautiful all the time with all of its holiday cheer
16. Feeling like I have more control and more certainty of what I really want and that I will have it
17. Getting closer to figuring out how to get to africa even if i just have to use all of my savings to get myself there, I am hoping it would be worth it in the long run.
18. Love :)

+ 19. Doing an awesome job in my swahili class today ! yesssssss. Sawa!

20. being happy to be in my apt on my own rather than feeling deathly alone. <3

Mark 11:24

morethanalive:

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

is it weird that out of all the music I listen to while being here, and trying to get through this awful hellish part of my life, that WHY? is the one band that always makes me feel better.

So I need to vent.
I am always super optimistic because its the only thing I know how to do, but lately so much has been weighing me down that I can’t seem to free myself from everything that has been hurting me. So I thought it would be a good time to make a list of positive things just to remind myself of what is really around me. So no this wont be <3 worthy or reblogable but I don’t care.

1. 2 days and I will be on my way home
2. Saturday was a really great day, if not one of the best I have had in Chicago
3. Chicago is so beautiful at Christmas time and it makes me happier than anything
4. There is a puppie store down the street from my apartment ..PUPPY THERAPY!
5. Christmas is soon, which means the semester ends, which means new classes and new opportunities to fill my life with great people
6. ” Hey, I think I left my hat at your apt, will you make sure no one steals it, its my favorite hat” …

“yes, but wait when can I see you again? “

” I don’t know, maybe after thanksgiving ?”

“No that isn’t soon enough, I want to see you tomorrow, I want to take you out to dinner and eat Effing flaming Mignon with you”

“haha okay well we will figure something out”

“well just call me again, your so charming when you talk on the phone”

7. Good memories with good people in Chicago
8. The let downs in my life have brought me so much closer to my mother and my sister
9. I am learning what I really want in my life, even if i don’t know I will ever find it. I know that there has to be better than what I have gone through in the past 3 weeks
10. Being appreciated
11. Being happy because I make myself happy
12. Knowing that I don’t ever have to go back, that everything is over and that I wont ever be that hurt again, I wont be wasting anymore time
13. Even though I know I have the right to be angry, I’m not
14. This made me feel so much better.
15. I am determined to find that guy I met on the bus still
16. I get to see my sister soon
17. I get to be with my family
18. My mom said a lot of things to me today that I really needed to hear, and meant so much to me
19. Doing all the things I’ve always wanted to do, because I finally have met people who actually want to go do them with me.
20. Moving forward and never ever looking back.
21. ” It’s okay if the past doesn’t mean anything to you anymore, because its not about the past, its about the people in your current life who are always there for you, who care about you. Its about being a constant, rather than a past, present or future issue. You can’t change the past for a reason, and you can’t predict the future, but you can move away and let go of what doesn’t deserve or appreciate you so that you can find what truly does”

22. Good night.

someone, anyone please hit me with your car and give me anmesia. Or just hit me with your car.

And then I called you
“I need you to pretend that we are in love again”
And you agreed to

I want so badly to believe
That there is truth, that love is real
And I want life in every word
To the extent that it’s absurd

p.s I wish I had never met you.